Just for the record I really dislike the concept of these sober trackers. Yet I am keeping one. The reason I am not a fan of them because it’s not like I lived in a perpetual state of drunkenness. I had many days of not drinking wine. And when I did drink I was not drinking during the day. Well, at least not when I first wake up. That was what “real” problem drinkers do. The “true” alcoholic. My wine consumption began in the evening. While I was prepping and cooking dinner. While I was watching a movie at night. While hanging out with a friend (a non church friend, of course) or my sister. While in the hot tub with the hubby.
The sad reality is that I was and am a “true” alcoholic, a “real” problem drinker because once the bottle was open I could not just have one or two glasses. I had to have the whole bottle. Then open the second bottle, usually only drinking half. Not because I had any self-control. But because I feel asleep or passed out. Whatever it was, I was out! If I managed to stay “awake” I would finish bottle #2. The frequency of not remembering things and blacking out had increased dramatically over the last few years…a sign of a problem?? But I kept telling myself the reason I would drink so much was because I loved the taste of wine. I just wanted more and more. It is so delicious. And while yes it is delicious, I manage to consume a lot less of other delicious non-alcoholic drinks. So there it is the evidence. I can’t control my wine drinking because I am an alcoholic. There is a saying I heard about alcoholics…”one drink is too many and a thousand isn’t enough.” Sounds about right. So as I wrap up day 5, I am thankful to have gotten through another day. Tired but determined. And living a life…just sober.🙂
‘Tired, but determined.’ Awesome. Seriously. p.s. I will vouch that life sober is a million times better than Life-on-Wine ever was.
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Thanks for the encouragement. Look forward to life being a million times better👍😊
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I didn’t want a sober tracker at first either, but now I ‘check-in’ and high five myself! 5 days is great!!
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